you did NOT have to break my ankle....

it is all fake....  eye play a dumb ass ball game....  during the week....  and....  then....  the real game is played with humans....  but....  immortals jump into thier skin and play the game for them....  

eye think you should shut down the immortal part....  and....  just let the humans play....  but....  no....  you would not be that decent.... so....  you COULD have found another immortal to play for me....

eye thought this was a win....

but....  eye now see....  you TRIED to hurt me in the WORST way possible....  break my ankle....  end my WINNING season....  and....  KEEP ME ON THE TEAM....  KEEP ME AS YOUR SLAVE FOR NEXT YEAR....  

show them my contract....  eye NEVER signed a fucking contract to play football for anyone....  

you guys really are SICK mother fuckers....  eye AM going to enjoy this....  eye used to feel bad about being the bad guy....  eye did NOT like hurting you....

BUT....  that is starting to change....  eye AM staring to become as cold and caloused as the original lucifer....

fuck YOU southerners....

today is....  january fifteenth....  put this on my wall tonight....  when eye go to ideal market....

what the fuck are you doing right now....

are you going after all of the bad northerners....  is that why mountain girl says she is sick....  did you tell her she is sick....

who the fuck are you to judge....  just because they are on the other side....  you are going to judge them....

and...

what the fuck....  do NOT tell me that eye am mister happy go lucky....

when....  you are aligned with cronus....  which means you are aligned with zeus....  the fucking nigger who rapes and pilages throughout the fucking galaxy....

who are you to judge....  the moon was judging....  now....  you are judging....  if they are on the other side....  they are bad....  if they are on your side....  you are going to allow them to make amends....  NO FUCKING WAY....

look....  you fucking forced me to engage with the fat cell at the organic produce store....  when....  eye am almost certain....  she has hit me over and over and over....  with a big fucking smile on her face....  she loved it....  she enjoyed it....

and....

you have to CONVINCE me that eye am wrong about her....  that the b & b sisters....  at the organic produce store....  are NOT enslaving the french....  you MUST convince me that eye am wrong....  eye CAN be wrong....  but....  eye THINK that my intuition....  that my sisters FEMALE intuition....  is USUALLY pretty fucking spot on....  so....  if they have enslaved the dragon and others....  they WILL pay for it....  no matter which side they are on....

and....

why did you single out mountain girl....  

and....

fuck you....  you think that because the south has me....  eye am going to all of a sudden forgive the foxes soldiers....  NO FUCKING WAY....  they ARE thieves....  they ARE going to jail....  eye do NOT give a fuck which side they are on....

and....

eye am NOT about to become friendly with ANOTHER fucking fat cell....  every fucking one of them....  except....  ev at the niwot treehouse....  has fucked with me....  sucked me in....  PRETENDING....  to be buddy buddy with me....  and....  then fucking hit me....  when eye least expect it....  eye am NOT about to let another fucking fat cell in....  there is ONLY one that eye trust....  there is ONLY one that did not hurt me....  that ACTUALLY went against the grain....  and....  helped me....  and....  eye am SURE that she took a lot of shit from the rest of the fat cells.... for doing it....  she IS my ONLY exception right now....  

and....

someone needs to tell the manager at mcguckins coffee....  that he IS a fucking prick....  do NOT try to make me accept him....  just because he is on YOUR team....  just because he is on YOUR side....  

now....  eye have a system....  and....  it does NOT care whose side you are on....  it does NOT care what race you are....  it does NOT care what you SAY to people....  it ONLY cares about your actions....  have you been genuine....  have you helped people....  have you hurt people....  have you been honest....  have you lied....  have you decieved....  have you hurt people....  simply....  because you could....  were you just following orders....  because you HAD to follow them....  OR....  did you get some sick twisted sense of enjoyment in hurting people....  did you GIVE the orders to hurt someone....  did you give me a purple banana out of the kindness of your heart....  or....  did you DEMAND something in return....  did you demand eye become your slave....  OR....  like today....  did you DEMAND that eye be kind to someone that eye BELIEVE is a monster....  for my purple banana....  did you use your powers....  to get YOUR way....  to you USE your power....  to control or manipulate or or or or.....  or....  were you one of the people....  walking down the street....  who GAVE me a purple banana....  NO STRINGS ATTACHED....  my sister KNOWS all....  she knows everything....  and....  she has a system....  she does NOT care if you are black or white....  she ONLY cares if you are good or evil....  she only cares if you have hurt people....  OR....  if you have helped people....  no strings attached....  you are only evil if you work for zeus....  white black brown yellow whatever....  she does NOT care about the color of your skin....  she probably does NOT even know the color of your skin....  she ONLY cares.... about your actions....  about your deeds....  and....  right now....  so many of you ARE really fucking up....  how many fucking teams have tried to control and manipulate and enslave and imprison me....  how many of you teams have come to collect the bounty on my soul....  jesus....  eye must have gone through forty or fifty by now....  that is a lot of BAD fucking people....  how many of you have laughed in my face....  or....  antagonized me with your fucked up....  eye got you....  or....  goodbye brian....  how many of you get pleasure from someones pain....  none of you people were force to be soldiers in this wicked ass game....  most of you CHOSE to be soldiers....  because....  you ENJOY hurting people....  there is something really wrong with you people....  you could quit....  many many GOOD people have quit....  the game got to them....  their soul....  their spirits....  their hearts....  could NOT handle it....  

how many of you....  are willing to ALIGN with fucking EVIL people....  to PROTECT your power....  how many of you are holding on to your power....  with everything you have got....  although....  the power that you are holding on to....  will one day....  be entirely meaningless....  and....  yet....  you are STILL holding on to it....  

now....  eye see some hope....  eye see some shame shining through in some of you....  eye see your scars....  and....  shame....  is the first sign....  that your heart is starting to open up....  right now....  three of you....  in the entire fucking world....  eye have seen three of you....  start....  to come alive....  

where is the rest of your shame....  where is the rest of your empathy....  where is the rest of your love....  

we NEED to earn it....

he says to me....  we need to earn it....

now....

who is he talking about....  ME....

or....

all of you....  you need to earn your place in society....  it should NOT just be a birthright....  how the fuck do you spell birthright....

does he agree with me....

stealing and robbing and cheating and manipulating and abusing and settup your way to the top....  is NOT earning it....  are WE in agreement there....

and.... 

is he saying....  eye NEED to earn it....  because....  eye would NOT call what eye am doing right now EARNING anything....

eye mean....  eye THINK that it shows that eye have grit....  that eye have tenacity....  that eye will NOT back down....  ok....  so....  that is good....

but....

what the fuck does that have to do with my leadership skills....

and....

let me back up a second here....  lucifer....  my son....  was willing to earn it....  he was willing to raise the dead....  would your fucked up god do that....  now....  he would tell someone to do it....  wow....  big fucking deal....  he knows how to give an order....  lucifer....  my son....  he is MY fucking son now....  you fucking douche bags....  lucifer....  was willing to earn it....  he was born to it....  yes....  he was born a demigod....  the son of god and the son of a human....  he was created to bring peace between the humans and the immortals....  but....  because he was BORN to the position....  you fuckers NEVER gave him a chance....  even though he said....  he would raise the dead....  he does NOT have MY tools....  and....  he was willing to risk it all....  to raise the dead....  now....  that is what eye call....  BRAVERY....  

now....  eye have the tools....  and....  eye am willing to do it....  but....  eye will NOT do it for free....  there is a cost to my service....  eye will NOT risk my life....  for free....  and....  eye have a lot of DEMANDS of you people....  IF....  eye am going to do it....  

now....  that is what eye call EARNING something....  but....  you fuckers want me to do it for you....  as your fucking slave....  no fucking way....

and....

eye have ALREADY earned it....  with....  ALL of these things that eye have done....  TIME....  TRUTH....  HEARTS....  you have NO fucking clue how much time eye have put into this....  you have NO fucking clue how much eye have suffered for you clowns....  you have NO fucking clue....  what eye have been through....  and....  you want me to earn it....  you want me to play fucking dumb ass quarterback for a fucking dumb ass team....  that is NOT what eye came here for....

eye came here....  to raise the dead....   to make wrongs right....  to bring this world out of the dark....  to set you ALL free....  ending the game....  to create paradise....  to make all of the GOOD immortals....  a SHIT LOAD of money....  to bring the universe here....  to negotiate the end of a war....  this game was a facade....  it was only created for one purpose....  well....  maybe more than one....  to attach all of the worlds to this world....  so that we could PROTECT everyone....  so that we could put an end to slavery....  and....  to determine....  where everyone is going to wind up....  the BEST players are the WORST people....  the last WILL become first and the first WILL become last....  in the real world....  when we shut down this game....  every one who made a shit load of monopoly money....  will be worth nothing....  and....  everyone that eye gifted something....  will make a shit load of money in the REAL world....  everyone who made the RIGHT decisions....  will be very well taken care of in the REAL world....  the second reason for this game....  was to determine where you were going to end up....  based on YOUR decisions....  it is a system....  created by a group of you....  who outlived the apocolypse the last time the world ended....  eye took them to my secret world....  where WE devised a new way....  and....  if you will....  we would like to SHOW you the new way....  eye imagine that my team is starting to wake up now....  eye cannot implement things....  eye need to stay asleep....  so that eye can raise the dead....  but....  if they are starting to wake up....  they can take things from here....  

and....  

you fuckers have me WASTING my fucking time....  trying to stay OUT of the mental hospital....  for the DUMBEST fucking reasons....  bringing a fucking cookie into a fucking coffee shop for lucifers fucking sake....  JESUS....  people....

you tell me....  earn it....  this is NOT fucking earning it....

you will NOT give me a fucking opportunity to SHOW you what eye can do....  to SHOW you what MY team can do....  we did NOT come here to play dumb ass football....  what a fucking waste of my fucking time....  we came here to do all the shit that eye pointed out above....  eye HAVE earned it....  and....  yet....  eye am still williing to earn it again....  in the RIGHT way....  staying out of the mental hospital is NOT earning fucking anything....  showing you that we can negotiate an end to a war....  showing you that we can mediate....  showing you that we can build paradise....  showing you that we can bring this fucking world out of the dark....  SAFELY....  now....  THAT....  is what eye call EARNING it....

no wait....  my job is NEVER done....  eye NEED to lead this process....  even if eye AM alseep....  just in case this is another god damn trick....

why do eye feel like my job has just begun....