eye am NOT in the service of any queen....

eye am NOT the....  rain king....  eye do NOT belong in the service of the queen....

eye do NOT feel like....  eye have seen all GOOD people....  turn their heads each day....  eye really do NOT feel like eye have seen many good people....  OR....  at least all of the good people seem to disappear....  eye am with....  tegan and sarah....  where does the good go....  where have ALL the good people in my life gone to....  OR....  is that what you mean....  by....  eye have seen all good people turn their heads each day....  so satisfied eye am on my way....  does turning their heads equate to disappearing from my life....  

eye am not here....  for the queen to USE me any way she wants....

eye belong in MY own service....

no father or mother is going to make this place my home....

eye am going to make this place MY home....  eye do NOT need anyone else to do it for me....

not with all your fucked up back room deals....  

eye WANT to be dead....  eye WANT to be homeless....

the only one whose service eye belong in....  is my soul sister....  my shadow....  my divine feminine....  lucy....

SHE....  will take care of me....  better than anyone else will....  

as....  love spreads....  throughout my body....  as....  my sister takes control....  as....  you....  awake my soul....  

my sister will take over....  she will take it from here....  my sister IS the messiah....  she can save me....  she can save you....  she can save everyone....  better than any king or queen can....

eye did NOT have any king or queen with me....  last night....  did eye....  and....  yet....  eye STILL survived....  that is because....  my sister got me through the night....  

eye most certainly....  do NOT belong in the service of....  mother nature....  who came to swallow me....  in the mental hospital....  with her totally fucked up....  totally annoying....  soldier....  who creates a monster like that....  who makes someone like that....  their fucking soldier....

eye am NOT a stalker....

despite ALL of your best efforts to make me LOOK like a stalker....  eye am NOT a stalker....

you immortals KNOW where eye am going to be....  and....  you CHOOSE who to put in MY face at what time....

for instance....  red....  you used to put in her my face....  all of the fucking time....  if eye was going to a certain grocery aisle....  at the spicy pickle grocer....  she would pop out from an aisle....  and....  start walking in front of me....  to make it LOOK like eye was following her....  and....  then....  that did not work....  so you brought her to the athletic club....  to get in front of me there....  her in her tight spandex outfits....

ya....  eye admit it....  eye AM attracted to a lot of these YOUNG ladies....  eye admit it....  and....  eye talk about it....  in my book and at home....  and....  eye HOPE that they MIGHT be interested in me....  since when has talking about someone at home or HOPING someone likes you....  been a fucking crime....  

in fact....  eye could say....  the OPPOSITE is true....  you fuckers....  you teams....  keep putting....  the SAME people in my face....  when eye decide....  eye do NOT like someone....  you put them in my face....  over and over and over and over and over....  the PRIME example....  is the fat cell....  at the organic produce store....  eye THINK she is a monster....  eye think she helps b-bitch enslave people....  and....  eye feel toxic energy coming from her....  when she walks behind me....  so....  eye TRY to avoid her like the fucking plague....  but....  you will pull shit ALL the time....  she will walk out from an aisle....  right in my face.... and....  when eye am in a checkout line....  you will have her take over the fucking line....  eye think she is a fucking monster....  and....  eye keep TRYING to AVOID her....  since whne is avoiding someone a fucking crime....  and....  you FUCKERS keep sticking her in my face....  over and over and over....  who is the stalker....  you fucks....  you fucking teams....  you fucking assholes....  are stalking me....  

eye try to avoid the ruler....  because she hit me....  three fucking times....  for....  no fucking good reason....  and....  you have her standing in my way....  on my fucking walk....  and....  you know when eye am coming out my door....  so....  you have her come out at the same time....

YOU ARE THE FUCKING STALKERS....  my ONLY crime....  is being attacted to younger women....  and....  HOPING....  they are attracted to me....  and....  some of them are fat cells....  that eye am totally NOT attracted to....  but....  there is something about them....  that seems trustworthy....  in a fucked up world...  where NONE of you pricks are trustworthy....  they seem to be the outliers....  they seem to me to be the exceptions to the rule....  since when has wanting to be surrounded by TRUSTWORTHY people a fucking crime....

and....

when eye ask you to bring someone back....  it is because....  eye THINK they are part of my team....  right now....  eye want to work with them....  when eye raise the dead....  these are the people that eye THINK eye can trust....  of all of you people that eye have met....  these are the ones that eye THINK eye can trust....  and....  some of them are dudes....  and....  eye am NOT gay....  so....  what the fuck do you have to say about that....  for example....  when eye ask you to bring back the flower girl at mcguckins coffee....  it is because....  eye THINK she is damn good at this game....  and....  eye MIGHT have asked her father if he would convince her to work with me....  before eye fell asleep....  eye have NO idea if his is true....  but....  that is what eye have made up in my mind....  and....  eye am NOT attracted to her....  eye just think she is VERY good at this game....  and....  when eye raise the dead....  she MIGHT be a significant asset....  IF....  she was working with me....  

yes....  eye am attracted to several young ladies....  at race car coffee....  but....  believe it or not....  eye can become unatracted....  eye have THAT kind of control over my desires....  and....  the sea....  she is a great example....  of someone eye am BEGINNING to trust....  and....  again....  eye am NOT attracted to her in that way....  but....  she has given me three tips....  two of them....  amazing tips....  two of them....  VERY....  helpful....  and....  YES....  eye AM attracted to the soldier of love....  but....  again....  she gave me an EXCELLENT tip a couple of days ago....  and....  aqua lungs soldier....  eye AM attacted to her....  but....  eye do NOT bother her....  because....  she has given me the cold shoulder....  and....  the sunshine soldier....  she is just glowing with a aura of kindness....  again....  eye am attracted to her....  but....  eye want to talk to people eye THINK eye can trust....  and....  if they happen to be beautiful....  that is a bonus....  eye get a seratonin boost just seeing them....  since when has that been illegal....  and....  there is the VERY sweet fat cell....  at uptown coffee....  eye have NO interest in her....  but....  again....  she is glowing with this aura of kindness....  

eye HOPE eye have made my point....  eye THINK eye have made my point....  many of you might THINK that eye am a creeper....  for being attracted to these younger women....  for wanting to talk to these younger women....  but....  eye THINK that eye have NOT given you a sign that eye am a stalker....  that eye am a danger to ANY one of them...

and....

when a certain song plays....  when they are out on the floor....  eye like to IMAGINE that they are talking to me....  and....  when....  mountain shadow is in the room....  and....  give your heart a break....   starts playing....  OR....  when the lionheart is on the floor....  or....  the girl that follows me into the woods is on the floor....  whoever she used to be to me....  and....  girl from the north country....   starts playing....   and....  eye start crying.  .  it is only because eye like to THINK that they were someone special to me....  BEFORE....  eye became human...  BEFORE....  eye fell asleep....  is there a problem with that....  is there any crime in that....  have you found ANY evidence to believe....  that means eye am going to start stalking them....  

eye like to think that eye have had MANY special young women in my life....  madness....  jealousy....  misery....  the soldiers of love....  tangled up in blue....  my lionheart....  and....  the list does NOT stop there....  

you have NEVER dealt with this kind of attraction before....  a feeling that eye knew MANY young attractive women in my past lives....  when eye was living in a dream....  when eye was caught up in a temporal anomoly....  and....  eye THINK that they are all finding me....  returning to me....  you have NEVER dealt with this before....  so....  who are you to say that eye am a danger to any of these women....  this is much different than  bjorks stalker....  who reaserched her every move....  and.... then....  tried to disfigure her....  because she dated a black man....  yes....  eye am TRYING to figure out of theee ladies were something to me....  from before eye went to sleep....  but....  is there a problem with that....  if eye THINK that each one of them....  MIGHT....  be a very small piece in a very large puzzle that eye am trying to put together....  is there a problem with that....  how does that put any of them at risk....  AND....  what if eye AM right....  

and....

what risk am eye to the people eye think are monsters....  eye am simple TRYING to avoid them....  and....  eye am asking YOU to investigate them....  and....  IF.....  eye am right about them....  make them face justice for their crimes....  eye am asking YOU to start investigating them....  instead....  of ONLY investigating me....  and....  IF....  eye am right about them...  do something about it....  for starters....  IF....  eye am right....  eye am asking you....  to STOP putting them in my fucking face....  like the fucking ASSHOLES you are....

eye am NOT oliver....

today is....  december sixth....

lucy....  will you wake up oliver....  from....  olivers army....  

olivers army THINKS eye am their employee....  they are trying to FORCE me to work for them....

please wake up oliver now....  so they cannot try to FORCE me to work for them....

thank you for setting me free....  today....  olivers army....

or....

was eye oliver....  eye do NOT know....