should EYE stay or go....

come on people....  should eye stay or should eye go....  come on good people....  orange you gonna speak up....

IF....

there is anyone out there that wants me to stay....  you SHOULD speak up....

they say....  that a child needs to hear ten good things for every bad thing you tell them....

now....  eye am NOT expecting to receive ten complements for every bad statement....

however....  it SEEMS to me like eye am getting hit with ten bad for every good thing that someone says to me....

in the last week....  eye have had....

one barista....  tell me that eye am the enemy invading on her teritory....

three baristas....  walk away....  or....  start talking to someone else....  while eye am in the middle of saying something to them....

eye have had....  one barista tell me....  that she would like it if eye went to another coffee shop....

eye had one lady give me a nasty wave goodbye today....

a woman who claims to be my friend....  is getting married to the guy who stole her world....  she is getting totally set up by him....  

AND....

she is HELPING him try to put me in jail or the mental hospital....  she hit me hard.yesterday....

she is SO fucking good at the liars game....  at the....  do not give brian a chance to share his story game....  at making me look like a monster....  

and....  yet....

she is so fucking HORRIBLE at playing MY way....  with the truith....  reading signs.... 

the signs are SO fucking obvious to me....  that she is being surrounded by VERY bad people....  that the worst fucking soul from her world....  is sticking his dick in her every fucking night....  that he is SETTING her up to fail....  locking her into fucking contracts....  OH MY GOD....  telling her every fucking thing that she wants to hear....   she is SO easily manipulated that way....  tell her she is amazing....  and....  you have her wrapped around your little finger....  they did their research....  they know exactly HOW to work her....  

and....  eye try to warn her....  but....  my shadows have made me look like her brother....  who she fucking hates....  so....  she does not listen to a fucking word eye tell her....  eye am trying to hellp her....  while she is trying to put me in jail or the mental hospital....  eye am trying to break her chains....  while she is trying to put me in chains....

you all act like....  it does not matter....  if we are together....  but....  NOBODY WANTS TO SEE US TOGETHER....  the bad people are surrounding her....  whispering all kinds of reasons for her to hate me....  making me look like the borther she hates....  offering her millions of dollars to try to set me up....  

they want to keep me away from her....  because....  she has the map to the underworld....  because....  she has the black list....  

and....  the same with....  paris....  they will not let me in her world....  so eye can let her onto my wall....

and....  casanova....  told me....  eye got you....  and....  baby tyson told me....  eye got you....  so many fucking people are out to get me....

where are the good....  where do the good go....  why do the good NOT speak up....

marsapan has told me she wants me to stay....  sierra madre has told me....  gave me some confidence....  telling me....  eye am sure whatever you decide....  brian.... will be the right decision....  but....  eye need to hold my ground with her....  eye cannot let her back on board....  not after she called the cops on me....  there MUST be consequences....  she can STILL redeem herself....  without being a part of my team....

and....

fucking jsickle realed me in....  with that whole eye gotta be the only one stick....  and....  they....  she fucking acted like a fucking power hungry cunt....  when she snapped at me....  out of the fucking blue....  and....  told me....  when eye said....  JOKING....  because we HAD been joking....  when eye said....  eye am trying to chase the other jsickle away.... her reply....  in a very serious condescending contorlling eye am better than thou voice....  if you say ANYTHING weird to me....  eye am going to call the cops.....  how about this cunt....  is this weird....  or....  is this just a straight up....  fuck you bitch....  FUCK OFF WHORE....  slutty little whore....

so....  do you get my point....  all of you good people out there....  eye am taking far TOO many hits....  with....  minimal POSITIVE reinforcement....  there NEEDS to be some fucking balance here....

dear HUMPHRY bogatz....

you ARE a pedophile....  eye have been waiting for you to go over to the dark side.....  for me to tell you this....

and....

today....  you WENT to the dark side....  you got bought off....  diamonds....  for your loyalty....

and....

they bought you off..... now....  it is TIME for me to EXPOSE you for what you are....

that little itch that you get....  when you are around children....  when you are watching little boys play basketball all day long....

IT IS A PROBLEM....  and....  eye CAN fix you....  

what is MORE important to you....  your little pet project....  OR....  you sanity....  eye KNOW what eye would choose....

by the way....  eye WOULD have given you you DREAM project....  eye would have given you the ENTIRE park....

and....

eye STILL might....  eye STILL think that you are a GOOD person....  you just have a little problem....  that eye CAN fix....  and....  you made a VERY dumb decision....  letting them buy you off....

and....

for your information....  the owner of r and r coffee house is a BAD dude.....  the ONLY reason that he owns the shop....  is....  because....  he IS the strongest in his world.....  and....  eye left because....  they brought another THUG in to chase out my GOOD soldier....  

you ARE correct....  many people there....  ARE.....  good people.....  but..... the owner is NOT one of them....  he has DRIVEN that business INTO the fucking ground....  you SHOULD do your homework....  before you choose sides....  you SHOULD do your homework....  BEFORE....  you speak the next time....  DUMB ASS....

how are you feeling right now....  are you feeling a little blue right now....  are you feeling a little sick right now....  

the ROLE of lucifer....

put this on my wall....  when we see jumbo glasses....  at the modern coffee house....  when we see surfer dude at the newlands coffee shop....  when you see the shadow behind the counter at race car coffee....  the one that said....  eye got you....  show it to everyone who said....  eye got you....  to everyone who says....  eye got you....

some ARROGANT bitch told me the other day....  she does not know if she can forgive lucifer....

she is aksing herself....  the WRONG question....

the question is NOT whether she can for forgive lucifer....  the question is....  can she forgive herself....  can ALL of you forgive yourselves....

eye let this game go on long enough....  that NONE of you are innocent....  all of you have tried to hurt lucifer....  tried to make lucifer your soldier....  tried to put him in jail or the mental hospital....

and....  guess what people....  guess what ALL of you fuciking pricks....

lucifer ONLY tried to win the game....  two times....  and....  he swore....  eye am....  never going back again....

so....  a thousand other people assumed the ROLE of lucifer....  a thousand good souls....  tried to play the role of lucifer....  tried to FIX this fucked up world....  tried to set ALL of you UNDESERVING fucks free....

and....  what did you do....  you ALL judged them....  based on the way that they looked....  because he looked like a snake....  all you fucking liberals....  who say that you should NOT judge someone based on how they look....  you should not judge someone based on the color of their skin....  every fucking one of you....  judged lucifer....  based on how he looked.... 

and....  you ALL silenced his voice....  you ALL tried to set him up....    because that fucking asshole....  god....  told you that lucifer was the deciever....  and....  you BLINDLY followed your god....  like fucking sheep....  

and....  did you know....  if you were successful in setting these INNOCENT victims up....  they spent their ENTIRE lives in jail or the mental hosptial....  where they were TORTURED by the likes of....  docter charlotte....  OR....  doctor clarke....  OR....  that fucking psychopath....  doctor o'brien....

so....  were you proud when you won....  when you told them....  eye got you....  were you proud of yourselves....  because....  you sentenced an INNOCENT person to a lifetime of confinement in the mental hospital....  where they were FORCED on mental health drugs that they did NOT need.....  where they were FORCED on mental health drugs that totally FUCKED them up....  it was TORTURE for them....  each one of them....  so....  you need to ask yourselves....  CAN EYE FORGIVE MYSELF....  that is the question that you SHOULD be asking yourself right now....

now....  eye am playing the role of lucifer....  eye wanted to feel his pain....  eye wanted to see what all of you greeeeeeeedy ass fucks put him threw....  first hand....  eye wanted to see what drove him to become the monster that he became....