eye INSIST on MY team....
the gray team.... is there a gray team.... if there is.... then... eye do NOT know what color to be....
but....
if there is not.... eye want to be the gray team.... the middle color.... the color that is dead.... the color that is in the middle.... of.... black and white....
so.... remember....
my songs know what you did in the dark....
and...
my songs know who should be on my team....
now....
these are ONLY guesses.... after all.... that is really all eye am doing here....
playing a guessing game....
the chapters contained in this section.... are MY best guesses.... of who eye WANT on my team....
also.... eye WANT to look back.... eye am GONNA look back.... eye am gonna REQUEST that certain people return from my past....
do NOT come.... do NOT join me....
UNLESS....
you agree to MY plan....
you are willing to help me die.... you are willing to set me free....
you are NOT made of greed....
you are willing to let me be.... quarterback AND coach AND owner....
and....
most importantly.... do NOT come.... UNLESS.... you are WILLING to.... speak to me....
eye NEED paris....
today.... is april seventh....
today.... LUCY.... is asking you to bring me paris.... now.... she is asking for... paris.... a second time today.... a third time today....
eye will NOT go down.... without.... paris....
she says.... that is not my name.... and.... it is not her name.... it is just where we stayed.... to get away from her parents....
paris.... is gonna be.... the last chick standing on my wall.... eye will NOT go down without her....
we will get away with everything... we WILL show them we are better....
they will say that she can do anything.... they will say that eye am clever....
we have done this a thousand times before.... she has taken me to the bottom.... a thousand times....
after my son has left with the cup.... eye am going to go.... the distance....
eye am going to be faced with bowel shaking earthquakes of doubt and remorse....
eye am going to need my eternal optimist to bring me out of the dark.... to be my confidence.... when the devil hits me with doubt and remorse....
mountain shadow is going to provide the map.... the moon of my heart is going to provide the map.....
paris.... is going to take me down....
and....
when we touch bottom.... when she.... lets me down easy.... tonight.... and....
then....
eye will give you.... something to believe in.... when eye burn up the basement full of demons.... after.... eye burn this fucking devil alive....
then....
the angels will come for me.... led by avery.... to take me out.... to raise the dead.... to bring your.... sons and daughters.... home....
and.... set all the shadows free.... set everyone free....
and.... before eye go down.... eye am going to make the black house rock.... and.... am gonna take down the king.... eye am gonna take down zeus.... setting the shadows free.... guaranteeing that the shadows work for me.... before eye go down....
you see.... the son.... the black son.... the black hole son.... says that he has me written.... in a black book.... by the railroad tracks.... and.... he tells me that he KNOWS my fate.... but.... eye AM a songbird with a brand new track.... he underestimates.... eye am going to REWRITE my fate.... BEFORE.... eye go down this time.... eye will NOT go down.... until he comes to stop the rain.... and.... eye take away his power....
eye have ONLY seen paris at the spanish coffee house.... either.... someone else needs to give her access to their world.... OR.... eye need to get back into the spanish coffee house.... the shadows and a fat fucking cell.... got me kicked out of the spanish coffee house.... to keep us apart..... it does not matter.... brian.... what you want.... because.... nobody wants to see you together.... and.... eye say.... it does not matter.... no.... because.... eye got you.... right where eye want you.... and.... we gonna fight for our right to be together....
eye NEED the lady in red....
today is.... april seventh....
today.... eye need.... the lady in red....
the REAL lady in red.... this time....
eye GOTTA have faith....
today is.... april fourteenth....
today.... she.... says.... eye gotta have faith....
eye NEED mary....
today is..... april eleventh....
today.... eye need mary....
mary.... in an animal.... as sick as they come.... taste of a canibal....
she will fill you with love.... and.... then.... she will drink out your blood....
eye NEED my little china girl....
today is.... april second....
today.... eye need my.... little china girl.... to join the fight....